more spring flowers
Jan. 31st, 2026 10:39 am
my spring flowers are in full bloom now, and there's more to come still
Newcomers
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New Year's Resolutions and Other Goals
Jan. 31st, 2026 03:52 amWe talk about different goal systems, pros and cons of resolutions, arts and crafts for tracking goals, human psychology, and more. You can share your resolutions or other goals. There are weekly check-in posts in January, and monthly ones in the rest of the year, for folks to talk about their accomplishments. December-January is the most active period, and it starts ramping up in November as lots of people begin thinking about their goals for the next year.
2026 Free Printable Calendars, Planners, and More is the guide post for this years goal-setting activities. For more details on relevant topics, see "Things You Can Talk About Here."
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February Manga TBR
Jan. 30th, 2026 11:53 pmUsed my manga TBR boardgame.
I finished 7/7 on my last challenge...yes it only took 2 days. Anything not BL-related I only read a chapter or couple chapters of because that was the mood. I'm feeling much better but am still a little sick, plus I am in a BL mood right now especially even though I seem to be reading a lot of 7 and under rated things lately;;
I still have 8 more single BL volumes to read and then I'll be switching to series, of which there are at least 7. 😵 I am glad to be getting rid of so many, means more room for ones I 100% want to own forever and the ones I pass on will go to someone who might like them better.
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Luffy
Skill: Don't like a tile? Roll a dice - Even go forward a tile, Odd go back
Roll #1:
An 8! Past the trap tile and onto the TBR one. As much time as they can take because I end up removing old stuff, I am starting to look forward to this tile. #884. After deleting like 8 things, it's Konya mo Nemurenai and I'll read its spin-off Kimi to Kore Kara as well. I predict it'll be a 7 or 7.5 star read based on reviews but who can say for sure.
Roll #2:
A 4, prompt: cover featuring blue. Let's do more Ookiku Furikabutte.
Roll #3:
A 5 and the trap tile, weee zooming back.. A 7, highest rated on TBR. It is of course One Piece at 9.22.
Roll #4:
An 8, prompt: published between 2010-2020. That's kind of a broad range...I might change this prompt later but for now... Akai Ito no Shikkou Yuuyo and its spin-off Kanawanu Koi no Musubikata. I only recently started going ahead and reading spin-offs/related manga so I don't know if I'll keep doing it BTW, I just don't like forgetting things in-between reading and sometimes I just don't find it worth it if I didn't like the first one all that much, better just to get it done together. I'm kind of a completionist to my detriment sometimes.
Roll #5:
A 3. Used my skill, rolled odd and landed on the CR tile, not my favorite one... Oh, it's Kyuuketsuki Sugu Shinu, I take it back!
Roll #6:
A 6, horror element Jibaku Shounen Hanako-kune immediately came to mind.
Roll #7
A 5, prompt: read a manhua! Hmm maybe it's time to finally read 19 Days? It seems the second couple has some tropes that I don't mesh with but we'll see if character growth is there to keep me going.
Roll #8
A 9 and the end. Physical BL manga this time is SEVEN (Tenzen Momoko)
~Manga TBR List~
[BL/Romance] Konya mo Nemurenai & Kimi to Kore Kara
[Sports/Slice of life] Ookiku Furikabutte
[Fantasy/Adventure] One Piece
[BL/Romance] Akai Ito no Shikkou Yuuyo & Kanawanu Koi no Musubikata
[Supernatural/Comedy] Kyuuketsuki Sugu Shinu
[Supernatural/Mystery] Jibaku Shounen Hanako-kun
[BL/Drama] 19 Days
[BL/Romance] SEVEN
x4 shounen, x6 BL
I finished 7/7 on my last challenge...yes it only took 2 days. Anything not BL-related I only read a chapter or couple chapters of because that was the mood. I'm feeling much better but am still a little sick, plus I am in a BL mood right now especially even though I seem to be reading a lot of 7 and under rated things lately;;
I still have 8 more single BL volumes to read and then I'll be switching to series, of which there are at least 7. 😵 I am glad to be getting rid of so many, means more room for ones I 100% want to own forever and the ones I pass on will go to someone who might like them better.
Avatar:

Luffy
Skill: Don't like a tile? Roll a dice - Even go forward a tile, Odd go back
Roll #1:
An 8! Past the trap tile and onto the TBR one. As much time as they can take because I end up removing old stuff, I am starting to look forward to this tile. #884. After deleting like 8 things, it's Konya mo Nemurenai and I'll read its spin-off Kimi to Kore Kara as well. I predict it'll be a 7 or 7.5 star read based on reviews but who can say for sure.
Roll #2:
A 4, prompt: cover featuring blue. Let's do more Ookiku Furikabutte.
Roll #3:
A 5 and the trap tile, weee zooming back.. A 7, highest rated on TBR. It is of course One Piece at 9.22.
Roll #4:
An 8, prompt: published between 2010-2020. That's kind of a broad range...I might change this prompt later but for now... Akai Ito no Shikkou Yuuyo and its spin-off Kanawanu Koi no Musubikata. I only recently started going ahead and reading spin-offs/related manga so I don't know if I'll keep doing it BTW, I just don't like forgetting things in-between reading and sometimes I just don't find it worth it if I didn't like the first one all that much, better just to get it done together. I'm kind of a completionist to my detriment sometimes.
Roll #5:
A 3. Used my skill, rolled odd and landed on the CR tile, not my favorite one... Oh, it's Kyuuketsuki Sugu Shinu, I take it back!
Roll #6:
A 6, horror element Jibaku Shounen Hanako-kune immediately came to mind.
Roll #7
A 5, prompt: read a manhua! Hmm maybe it's time to finally read 19 Days? It seems the second couple has some tropes that I don't mesh with but we'll see if character growth is there to keep me going.
Roll #8
A 9 and the end. Physical BL manga this time is SEVEN (Tenzen Momoko)
~Manga TBR List~
[BL/Romance] Konya mo Nemurenai & Kimi to Kore Kara
[Sports/Slice of life] Ookiku Furikabutte
[Fantasy/Adventure] One Piece
[BL/Romance] Akai Ito no Shikkou Yuuyo & Kanawanu Koi no Musubikata
[Supernatural/Comedy] Kyuuketsuki Sugu Shinu
[Supernatural/Mystery] Jibaku Shounen Hanako-kun
[BL/Drama] 19 Days
[BL/Romance] SEVEN
x4 shounen, x6 BL
January Manga Wrap-Up 3
Jan. 30th, 2026 09:42 pm
Read the BL Boku ni Datte Iibun ga Aru, rated it 6/10. I hope Picnic is better 
Read the BL Ai no DNA, rated it 6/10. 
Read chapter 187-189 of Mairimashita! Iruma-kun.
Read chapter 20 of Are You Alice?.
Read chapter 184 of D.Gray-Man.
(Re)read episode 9 of Men of the Harem.
(Re)read the BL Picnic, kept the rating a 7. 
tales from the toy box
Jan. 31st, 2026 12:45 amI finished another gunpla model recently (putting them together clicks with something in my brain) and I was wondering what to do with the leftover runners and boxes, cause it feels like such a waste to throw them away. Partially inspired by the approach I'm taking for my current project and wanting to be more mindful of the things I toss, I figured I could probably make something that wasn't just keeping them in their boxes that take up space.
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Now, everyone's accessories and pieces are within reach, ready for play!
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Now, everyone's accessories and pieces are within reach, ready for play!
Quick Rec Day
Jan. 30th, 2026 10:37 pmEnjoy a fanwork recently, but don't want to create a whole new post to recommend it? Drop a link here! Every week, I encourage you to share a fanwork that you enjoy!
Please try to include some information on the ship or character(s) involved, as our members' specific interests vary! Provide trigger warnings, if applicable, as well. And please make sure you're properly linking back to the creator of the fanwork. So, no reposts!
Self-recs are encouraged, too! Creators, feel free to rec any Dunmeshi fanworks you've made recently (or not-so-recently!).
Remember: if you want to see all of the recs people have to offer, consider clicking the "Track this" button to be notified of all future replies! And also keep in mind you can always make a separate post for your recs. This helps keeps our community active, on top of giving your recs more visibility.
I look forward to seeing what everyone shares!
Please try to include some information on the ship or character(s) involved, as our members' specific interests vary! Provide trigger warnings, if applicable, as well. And please make sure you're properly linking back to the creator of the fanwork. So, no reposts!
Self-recs are encouraged, too! Creators, feel free to rec any Dunmeshi fanworks you've made recently (or not-so-recently!).
Remember: if you want to see all of the recs people have to offer, consider clicking the "Track this" button to be notified of all future replies! And also keep in mind you can always make a separate post for your recs. This helps keeps our community active, on top of giving your recs more visibility.
I look forward to seeing what everyone shares!
Sunsets and Woodpecker
Jan. 30th, 2026 03:29 pm
This photo wasn't the year's first sunset but rather the first one that was really a "wow". Loved the colors.
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Icon Progression Post-2025
Jan. 30th, 2026 02:23 pm


Welcome to 2025's icon progression post. We're doing this as January's activity at |
Book review: Affinity
Jan. 30th, 2026 10:46 amI finished my second Sarah Waters book this week after devouring most of it on my flight to Texas and she has surely done it again! This book was Affinity, a much less-talked about one of her novels, which concerns Victorian lady Margaret Prior, who in an effort to overcome her grief for her recently deceased father and a mysterious illness that gripped her around that time, decides to become a "Lady Visitor" to a women's prison: someone who comes to talk with them from time-to-time. She almost immediately becomes enraptured with a young medium, Selina Dawes, doing time for murder and assault.
I don't usually like to do extensive summaries in these reviews, but I want to highlight what USA Today called "thinly veiled erotica" in this book. This book is best approached, I think, with a measure of dream logic (or porn logic, if you prefer), where things can be deeply erotic in concept that in real life would certainly not be. Nothing illustrates this better than the opening chapter of the book.
In the opening chapter, Margaret makes her first visit to Millbank prison. Waters does an excellent job of making the prison itself a terror; a winding maze of whitewashed, identical hallways inside a cocoon of pentagonal buildings set unsteadily into the marshy bank of the Thames within which Margaret immediately becomes turned around. She is passed from the gentleman family friend who first suggested she become a Lady Visitor to the matrons of the women's side of the prison, a realm populated entirely by women. As Margaret passes into this self-contained place which feels entirely removed from the rest of the world (the prisoners are allowed to send correspondence four times a year) she becomes keenly aware of the strange blurring and even erasure of the boundaries, rules, and customs of the outside world. Furthermore, Margaret is reassured over and over again that she is, effectively, in a position of power over all these vulnerable women, trapped in their cells and subject to the harsh rules of Millbank. The prison fully intends for Margaret to be someone for them to idolize and look up to, someone whose attention can make them strive to better themselves. Margaret, a repressed Victorian lesbian, is dropped into this strange realm of only women in which she operates above the rules that strictly govern the rest of them.
It is in this state, after this long journey through Millbank, that Margaret first catches sight of Selina Dawes, and is taken from the start.
The book is not heavy on plot, and some reviewers have called it dull, but I was riveted. The plot is the development of Margaret and Selina's relationship, and the progress of Margaret's mindset on the question of whether Selina's powers or real, or if she's just a very talented con artist. These are by nature things which progress gradually. Practically, it's true that not much happens: Margaret visits the prison. Margaret goes to the library. Margaret has a disagreement with her mother. But her mental and emotional changes across the book are significant.
There are also the vibes. Waters does such a good job of capturing a very gloomy, gothic atmosphere where Margaret (and the reader!) are constantly sort of questioning what's real and to what degree and there's a powerful sense of unease that permeates the entire story. It ties in so well with Selina's role as a spiritual medium and the Victorian obsession with such things; it creates a very holistic theme and feel to the book that I just sank into.
On the flip side of the erotic view of the prison we see early in the book, Waters also uses it to terrifying effect to simulate the paranoia of a closeted gay person at this time in England. As Margaret's feelings for Selina develop and become more explicit, she lives in terror that the matrons of the prison will realize that her interest in Selina is not the polite interest of a Lady Visitor in her charges. She is always analyzing what the matrons can see in her interactions with Selina and what might go under the radar; she is constantly wondering if rude comments or looks from this matron or that is simple rudeness, or a veiled accusation of impropriety. The panopticon pulses around Margaret more and more but she can't keep away from Selina even to protect herself from the danger of being caught.
On the whole, I thought this book was fantastic. I enjoyed it even more than Fingersmith. Waters was really cooking here and I've added several more of her books to my TBR, because she obviously knows what she's doing.
I don't usually like to do extensive summaries in these reviews, but I want to highlight what USA Today called "thinly veiled erotica" in this book. This book is best approached, I think, with a measure of dream logic (or porn logic, if you prefer), where things can be deeply erotic in concept that in real life would certainly not be. Nothing illustrates this better than the opening chapter of the book.
In the opening chapter, Margaret makes her first visit to Millbank prison. Waters does an excellent job of making the prison itself a terror; a winding maze of whitewashed, identical hallways inside a cocoon of pentagonal buildings set unsteadily into the marshy bank of the Thames within which Margaret immediately becomes turned around. She is passed from the gentleman family friend who first suggested she become a Lady Visitor to the matrons of the women's side of the prison, a realm populated entirely by women. As Margaret passes into this self-contained place which feels entirely removed from the rest of the world (the prisoners are allowed to send correspondence four times a year) she becomes keenly aware of the strange blurring and even erasure of the boundaries, rules, and customs of the outside world. Furthermore, Margaret is reassured over and over again that she is, effectively, in a position of power over all these vulnerable women, trapped in their cells and subject to the harsh rules of Millbank. The prison fully intends for Margaret to be someone for them to idolize and look up to, someone whose attention can make them strive to better themselves. Margaret, a repressed Victorian lesbian, is dropped into this strange realm of only women in which she operates above the rules that strictly govern the rest of them.
It is in this state, after this long journey through Millbank, that Margaret first catches sight of Selina Dawes, and is taken from the start.
The book is not heavy on plot, and some reviewers have called it dull, but I was riveted. The plot is the development of Margaret and Selina's relationship, and the progress of Margaret's mindset on the question of whether Selina's powers or real, or if she's just a very talented con artist. These are by nature things which progress gradually. Practically, it's true that not much happens: Margaret visits the prison. Margaret goes to the library. Margaret has a disagreement with her mother. But her mental and emotional changes across the book are significant.
There are also the vibes. Waters does such a good job of capturing a very gloomy, gothic atmosphere where Margaret (and the reader!) are constantly sort of questioning what's real and to what degree and there's a powerful sense of unease that permeates the entire story. It ties in so well with Selina's role as a spiritual medium and the Victorian obsession with such things; it creates a very holistic theme and feel to the book that I just sank into.
On the flip side of the erotic view of the prison we see early in the book, Waters also uses it to terrifying effect to simulate the paranoia of a closeted gay person at this time in England. As Margaret's feelings for Selina develop and become more explicit, she lives in terror that the matrons of the prison will realize that her interest in Selina is not the polite interest of a Lady Visitor in her charges. She is always analyzing what the matrons can see in her interactions with Selina and what might go under the radar; she is constantly wondering if rude comments or looks from this matron or that is simple rudeness, or a veiled accusation of impropriety. The panopticon pulses around Margaret more and more but she can't keep away from Selina even to protect herself from the danger of being caught.
On the whole, I thought this book was fantastic. I enjoyed it even more than Fingersmith. Waters was really cooking here and I've added several more of her books to my TBR, because she obviously knows what she's doing.
Book review: Affinity
Jan. 30th, 2026 10:44 amTitle: Affinity
Author: Sarah Waters
Genre: Fiction, romance, queer lit, historical
I finished my second Sarah Waters book this week after devouring most of it on my flight to Texas and she has surely done it again! This book was Affinity, a much less-talked about one of her novels, which concerns Victorian lady Margaret Prior, who in an effort to overcome her grief for her recently deceased father and a mysterious illness that gripped her around that time, decides to become a "Lady Visitor" to a women's prison: someone who comes to talk with them from time-to-time. She almost immediately becomes enraptured with a young medium, Selina Dawes, doing time for murder and assault.
I don't usually like to do extensive summaries in these reviews, but I want to highlight what USA Today called "thinly veiled erotica" in this book. This book is best approached, I think, with a measure of dream logic (or porn logic, if you prefer), where things can be deeply erotic in concept that in real life would certainly not be. Nothing illustrates this better than the opening chapter of the book.
In the opening chapter, Margaret makes her first visit to Millbank prison. Waters does an excellent job of making the prison itself a terror; a winding maze of whitewashed, identical hallways inside a cocoon of pentagonal buildings set unsteadily into the marshy bank of the Thames within which Margaret immediately becomes turned around. She is passed from the gentleman family friend who first suggested she become a Lady Visitor to the matrons of the women's side of the prison, a realm populated entirely by women. As Margaret passes into this self-contained place which feels entirely removed from the rest of the world (the prisoners are allowed to send correspondence four times a year) she becomes keenly aware of the strange blurring and even erasure of the boundaries, rules, and customs of the outside world. Furthermore, Margaret is reassured over and over again that she is, effectively, in a position of power over all these vulnerable women, trapped in their cells and subject to the harsh rules of Millbank. The prison fully intends for Margaret to be someone for them to idolize and look up to, someone whose attention can make them strive to better themselves. Margaret, a repressed Victorian lesbian, is dropped into this strange realm of only women in which she operates above the rules that strictly govern the rest of them.
It is in this state, after this long journey through Millbank, that Margaret first catches sight of Selina Dawes, and is taken from the start.
The book is not heavy on plot, and some reviewers have called it dull, but I was riveted. The plot is the development of Margaret and Selina's relationship, and the progress of Margaret's mindset on the question of whether Selina's powers or real, or if she's just a very talented con artist. These are by nature things which progress gradually. Practically, it's true that not much happens: Margaret visits the prison. Margaret goes to the library. Margaret has a disagreement with her mother. But her mental and emotional changes across the book are significant.
There are also the vibes. Waters does such a good job of capturing a very gloomy, gothic atmosphere where Margaret (and the reader!) are constantly sort of questioning what's real and to what degree and there's a powerful sense of unease that permeates the entire story. It ties in so well with Selina's role as a spiritual medium and the Victorian obsession with such things; it creates a very holistic theme and feel to the book that I just sank into.
On the flip side of the erotic view of the prison we see early in the book, Waters also uses it to terrifying effect to simulate the paranoia of a closeted gay person at this time in England. As Margaret's feelings for Selina develop and become more explicit, she lives in terror that the matrons of the prison will realize that her interest in Selina is not the polite interest of a Lady Visitor in her charges. She is always analyzing what the matrons can see in her interactions with Selina and what might go under the radar; she is constantly wondering if rude comments or looks from this matron or that is simple rudeness, or a veiled accusation of impropriety. The panopticon pulses around Margaret more and more but she can't keep away from Selina even to protect herself from the danger of being caught.
On the whole, I thought this book was fantastic. I enjoyed it even more than Fingersmith. Waters was really cooking here and I've added several more of her books to my TBR, because she obviously knows what she's doing.
Author: Sarah Waters
Genre: Fiction, romance, queer lit, historical
I finished my second Sarah Waters book this week after devouring most of it on my flight to Texas and she has surely done it again! This book was Affinity, a much less-talked about one of her novels, which concerns Victorian lady Margaret Prior, who in an effort to overcome her grief for her recently deceased father and a mysterious illness that gripped her around that time, decides to become a "Lady Visitor" to a women's prison: someone who comes to talk with them from time-to-time. She almost immediately becomes enraptured with a young medium, Selina Dawes, doing time for murder and assault.
I don't usually like to do extensive summaries in these reviews, but I want to highlight what USA Today called "thinly veiled erotica" in this book. This book is best approached, I think, with a measure of dream logic (or porn logic, if you prefer), where things can be deeply erotic in concept that in real life would certainly not be. Nothing illustrates this better than the opening chapter of the book.
In the opening chapter, Margaret makes her first visit to Millbank prison. Waters does an excellent job of making the prison itself a terror; a winding maze of whitewashed, identical hallways inside a cocoon of pentagonal buildings set unsteadily into the marshy bank of the Thames within which Margaret immediately becomes turned around. She is passed from the gentleman family friend who first suggested she become a Lady Visitor to the matrons of the women's side of the prison, a realm populated entirely by women. As Margaret passes into this self-contained place which feels entirely removed from the rest of the world (the prisoners are allowed to send correspondence four times a year) she becomes keenly aware of the strange blurring and even erasure of the boundaries, rules, and customs of the outside world. Furthermore, Margaret is reassured over and over again that she is, effectively, in a position of power over all these vulnerable women, trapped in their cells and subject to the harsh rules of Millbank. The prison fully intends for Margaret to be someone for them to idolize and look up to, someone whose attention can make them strive to better themselves. Margaret, a repressed Victorian lesbian, is dropped into this strange realm of only women in which she operates above the rules that strictly govern the rest of them.
It is in this state, after this long journey through Millbank, that Margaret first catches sight of Selina Dawes, and is taken from the start.
The book is not heavy on plot, and some reviewers have called it dull, but I was riveted. The plot is the development of Margaret and Selina's relationship, and the progress of Margaret's mindset on the question of whether Selina's powers or real, or if she's just a very talented con artist. These are by nature things which progress gradually. Practically, it's true that not much happens: Margaret visits the prison. Margaret goes to the library. Margaret has a disagreement with her mother. But her mental and emotional changes across the book are significant.
There are also the vibes. Waters does such a good job of capturing a very gloomy, gothic atmosphere where Margaret (and the reader!) are constantly sort of questioning what's real and to what degree and there's a powerful sense of unease that permeates the entire story. It ties in so well with Selina's role as a spiritual medium and the Victorian obsession with such things; it creates a very holistic theme and feel to the book that I just sank into.
On the flip side of the erotic view of the prison we see early in the book, Waters also uses it to terrifying effect to simulate the paranoia of a closeted gay person at this time in England. As Margaret's feelings for Selina develop and become more explicit, she lives in terror that the matrons of the prison will realize that her interest in Selina is not the polite interest of a Lady Visitor in her charges. She is always analyzing what the matrons can see in her interactions with Selina and what might go under the radar; she is constantly wondering if rude comments or looks from this matron or that is simple rudeness, or a veiled accusation of impropriety. The panopticon pulses around Margaret more and more but she can't keep away from Selina even to protect herself from the danger of being caught.
On the whole, I thought this book was fantastic. I enjoyed it even more than Fingersmith. Waters was really cooking here and I've added several more of her books to my TBR, because she obviously knows what she's doing.
braise
Jan. 30th, 2026 07:57 ambraise (BRAYZ) - v., to cook (meat or vegetables) by browning in fat then simmering in a small quantity of liquid in a covered container.
Also sometimes called pot-roasting, though sometimes a distinction is made between the two while admitting they're closely related processes. Can be thought of as stewing in very little liquid, though typically braising uses larger cuts of meat. From French braiser, to braise, from braise, live coals, from Old French brese, from Germanic origin probably via Old Dutch.
And that's a week of culinary terms -- back next week with the usual mixed greens.
---L.
Also sometimes called pot-roasting, though sometimes a distinction is made between the two while admitting they're closely related processes. Can be thought of as stewing in very little liquid, though typically braising uses larger cuts of meat. From French braiser, to braise, from braise, live coals, from Old French brese, from Germanic origin probably via Old Dutch.
And that's a week of culinary terms -- back next week with the usual mixed greens.
---L.
Hockey Magazine Portraits by judestlispenard (SFW)
Jan. 30th, 2026 09:04 pmFandom: Heated Rivalry
Characters/Pairing/Other Subject: Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
Content Notes/Warnings: none
Medium: digital art
Artist on DW/LJ: n/a
Artist Website/Gallery: judestlispenard on tumblr
Why this piece is awesome: A gorgeous double portrait on the cover of an imaginary hockey magazine - really good likenesses, and they got Ilya's eye colour right! (none of this "his piercing blue eyes" crap). Beautiful work, and a cute snippet of their dialogue below.
Link: Hockey Magazine Portraits, backup link here
Characters/Pairing/Other Subject: Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
Content Notes/Warnings: none
Medium: digital art
Artist on DW/LJ: n/a
Artist Website/Gallery: judestlispenard on tumblr
Why this piece is awesome: A gorgeous double portrait on the cover of an imaginary hockey magazine - really good likenesses, and they got Ilya's eye colour right! (none of this "his piercing blue eyes" crap). Beautiful work, and a cute snippet of their dialogue below.
Link: Hockey Magazine Portraits, backup link here
"Not really pacing check" continuing + mindset
Jan. 30th, 2026 07:43 amThe few notes I took during my not-really-pacing-check aren't taking as long as the previous chunky edits to integrate (THANK GOD), which means I'm also speed-running through my Having Feelings About The Manuscript cycle... *sigh* I was taking a few notes for a post as I went (seeing how much better it is than before! happy feelings!) but I've already moved on from happy to things to be sad/disappointed about.
Audience: "Wow, you're about 70% into the manuscript and thinking it's bad? Is this where we're supposed to act surprised???"
Like, it does help to know that I literally go through this cycle every time whether writing or editing, but the feelings are still being felt and kind of suck regardless T_T
Here's what the voice at the back of my mind says:
You're enjoying the story because you can see that it's better "than before" but that doesn't mean it's good. It'll probably still look like baby's crappy first draft to someone coming in fresh. You've also had over 2 years to get used to the worst flaws, the ones that can't be fixed because they are load-bearing in the story.
Anyway!
As always the first couple of days were a bit rough while I adjusted to a new way of doing things. I've landed on: I take the written down squiggled notes I made and add them as comments to my Scrivener file (unless they're super straightforward/require 0 thinking, then I just make the change). Then I go through these comments scene by scene, deleting them as I integrate the feedback. In my BuJo I have many many little boxes for every scene that I can tick when I'm done :D Each chapter is about 4-6 scenes so it helps with giving a sense of progress and make the process feel a bit less overwhelming. I do love my ticky boxes.
Vaguely considering adding chapter titles because a few chapters would really benefit, but some others are more awkward and I don't know that I really want to have to find 10+ more titles /o\
I'm still writing ficlets here and there as a pressure valve from editing :D However, there's a mindset thing I'm noticing that I don't like at all:
Me about to write fic: "This should be FUN! If it's not FUN, then you failed!! :D"
Me about to write origfic: "This should be GOOD! If it's not GOOD, then you failed!! D:"
I don't like that. It should all be fun, like, I should always slip into writing mode with a lighter spirit. I don't want my own worlds to feel like a chore, full of associated pressure. So, something I'll definitely want to address, though I'm not too sure how yet.
Audience: "Wow, you're about 70% into the manuscript and thinking it's bad? Is this where we're supposed to act surprised???"
Like, it does help to know that I literally go through this cycle every time whether writing or editing, but the feelings are still being felt and kind of suck regardless T_T
Here's what the voice at the back of my mind says:
You're enjoying the story because you can see that it's better "than before" but that doesn't mean it's good. It'll probably still look like baby's crappy first draft to someone coming in fresh. You've also had over 2 years to get used to the worst flaws, the ones that can't be fixed because they are load-bearing in the story.
Anyway!
As always the first couple of days were a bit rough while I adjusted to a new way of doing things. I've landed on: I take the written down squiggled notes I made and add them as comments to my Scrivener file (unless they're super straightforward/require 0 thinking, then I just make the change). Then I go through these comments scene by scene, deleting them as I integrate the feedback. In my BuJo I have many many little boxes for every scene that I can tick when I'm done :D Each chapter is about 4-6 scenes so it helps with giving a sense of progress and make the process feel a bit less overwhelming. I do love my ticky boxes.
Vaguely considering adding chapter titles because a few chapters would really benefit, but some others are more awkward and I don't know that I really want to have to find 10+ more titles /o\
I'm still writing ficlets here and there as a pressure valve from editing :D However, there's a mindset thing I'm noticing that I don't like at all:
Me about to write fic: "This should be FUN! If it's not FUN, then you failed!! :D"
Me about to write origfic: "This should be GOOD! If it's not GOOD, then you failed!! D:"
I don't like that. It should all be fun, like, I should always slip into writing mode with a lighter spirit. I don't want my own worlds to feel like a chore, full of associated pressure. So, something I'll definitely want to address, though I'm not too sure how yet.
